Monday Deeds

I had 2 classes 2day, one in the morning, another in the evening both my part 2 students we had a revision 2day, to be exact a WRITING revision but I did something different 2day instead of greeting them, I had personally asked them to recite Al Fatihah for our brothers and sisters in Gaza City they were surprised, but they did recite whole heartedly

I made the effort to introduce them a new phrase 2day : ETHNIC CLEANSING

well, at least they got to knw that we could turn an adj to a verb

Am I proud of myself 2day? U bet I do!!!! Should I do tis more often ? Of course, I'll do (it'll do u no harm in reciting Al Fatihah)

so people, start reciting Al Fatihah with the hope that our brothers & sisters in Gaza City will gain the strength and courage in facing the brutal, humanless & heartless bombs

Al Fatihah

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

Praise be to Allah

the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds

Most Gracious, Most Merciful

Master of the Day of Judgement

You do we worship, and Your aid we seek

Show us the straight way

The way of those on whom You have bestowed Your Grace

those whose (portion) is not wrath, and who go not astray

The Story of Mommy's Wardrobe

I complained to him abt my wardrobe yesterday morning, while we were havin' brkfast

mommy : walid, mommy rasa nak tukar wardrobe lah, mommy dah boring sgt2 ni asyik the same baju kurung for the whole of last yr ( i suddenly noticed this the nite b4, while cracking my head on alamak-its-thursday-so-must-wear-batik thingy)

walid : emmm, nak tukar seme2? baju raya aritu pon walid rasa mommy baru pkai 2,3 times je last yr... (he wz grinning..x knw which part that really amused him!?!)

mommy : not really..but most of them (errr..ruginye tak ckp seme2 nak baru, including the cabinet?! bijak sungguh!)

walid : we'll see abt that, in the mean time, why don't u put away all the baju that 'u hate' to see? bile kosong skit, its easier for us to go on a mission on finding new baju kurung ? (alamak, why must he say all the baju that i hate to see?! nw, the guilt is really on my side!?! :( )

mommy : but walid, on the 2nd tot, i x think its a gud idea..(plz imagine the puss in boots from shrek..)

walid: r u sure?!?

mommy : hummmm..

Friday Jan 1, 2009

when everyone is wishing u happy new year, u're supposed to be happy to embrace the coming of beginning of new year and wt all the gud wishes, u're ready to take up all the challenges that may come in ur way in conquering the world but that didnt happen to the three of us that day instead, i spent the eve of the last day of 2008 in tears

15 nov 08

my gp confirmed me that i was preggy, 5 wks actually we were so jubilant that umar will finally get his lil bro/sis

31 dec 08

i had a terrible tummy pain, followed by some blood and i didnt feel gud abt it yet, i kept it quiet prayin' that 2morrow it'll be ok

1 jan 09

the same gp finally broke the news to us, i was at the verge of threaten abortion n the scan ws done twice since he wanted to be sure abt it.. finally, he referred us the the specialist, Dr Chandra i wz already in tears in the car when he suddenly said to " kita redha atas segala yg berlaku, mungkin bukan rezeki kita" his voice was shaky, but i knew that he wanted to be strong for us.. when we arrived at the clinic, Dr Chandra was away, n the nurses told us to come again after 2pm, he took me for lunch, knowin' that i needed sometimes to clear my mind, and we didnt talk abt the baby that we may lost, instead we talked abt buyin' new laser printer for my office, paintin' the office walls in pastel blue

we arrived back at the clinic around 2.30pm, and we were straight called to see him. Dr Chandra was a very good O&G, in fact he distracted my mind by talking abt food (he knew my condition of havin HBP at a very tender age) when he scanned my tummy, he looked straight into my eyes, and asked me to be patient, even from the look from his eyes i already knew the answer n i quickly searched for my hubby's face asking for re-assurance that the answer that Dr Chandra will give be all lies that " ur baby has died, & we've got to take it out ASAP" & "ur baby is so small, in fact its development is so slow that if we were to compare wt a normal 3 mnth fetus, urs more likely that it was only few weeks" Ya Allah, berat sungguh ujian yg Kau berikan! we discussed abt for abt 1/2 hr, wt him tellin me that it is not ur fault that this thing happened, its a natural way for the body to eliminate things n he set up the appt for me, the next morning at 8 am telling me again to have a gud nite sleep and to fast for at least 8 hrs

back at home, i was totally in tears everytime i look at umar, i just cant stop crying that nite, we talked from heart to heart but the only thing that gave me strength when he said " anak dunia kita dah ada, anak akhirat pun kita dah ada nnt di akhirat, adik (the pet name that we gave to our late baby) akan tunggu kita, & insyaAllah, adik akan tarik kita ke syurga" I cried, n cried till i couldnt cry anymore that nite, he wrapped me in his arms, petting & kissing my head til i felt asleep...

part of me has gone for gud

2 jan, 09

it was friday and people always say that those who die on friday, will straight go to heaven probably same goes to adik (insyaAllah) the process was not that long , the agony of waiting, the tots that part of me has gone...

it was supposed to be a 5-mins process, but mine was a bit long since it was stucked & in pieces once it was over, Dr Chandra showed me the piece that got stucked & it was covered wt flesh n probably my eyes were playing tricks on me, i saw a whittish baby bone covered wt flesh

there u go..my story for 2009 as for now, i am resting at home wt alice by my side while my hubby will start going to office this monday, tryin' to explain things to our beloved colleagues (since i dare not do so) thank u to those who called (angah & nurzea) and thank u also for sharing some experiences, all the word of strength...

when the rozmans went for a vacation-part 1

how many days before 2008 becomes 2009? hehe..x sabar sungguh nak masuk new yr, coz i still have another 15 days of annual leave surprised? tell me 'bt that..tot of using & spending it this yr, but come to think of it..neay...better keep it for some othr good reasons..(p/s: angah..if u were to read this entry, u knw what i mean!) as most of u guys knw, we went for a long, really, really long holiday this time with going back to shah alam, & spent a nite there (with some shopping kat JJ bukit raja..hehe & met yayang-the ever dearest niece) & the next day sped off to Cameron highlands ( read my confession: I'VE NEVER BEEN TO THAT PLACE thru'out my life!!) felt in love with the strawberry tea & scone ( we were really mat-sallehs wanna be!) the next day went thru a long-but-interested-yet-adventurous journey back to kelantan ...ODW back to our nest, we stopped at Ipoh and spent a nite at Syuen Hotel & the lil' one had a tremendously good time with his long-lost bro @ iskandar aiman this didn't stop here, we made another quick stop at Alor Gajah to pay his uncle a visit, had dinner there and finally the purple machine drove us back to jementah..phuuiihhh! this is not the best part, the best part is..both mommy & lil' one were down with flu & slight fever, leaving all the bags, dirty laundry with him! Ya Allah, kesian sungguh..kami trus tido bila sampai umah at around 11 pm, & i had no idea what time the big boy slept! i only felt ok a bit yesterday (we went back on friday nite) so today, went back to the office (hanya utk chck mails & brought back all the office work hehe) balik umah utk lipat baju yg mmg dah setambun & sampai dah tak nampak hubby sendri! as i am posting this entry, my two boys r sound asleep, especially the lil' one cz dia x tido ptg td ( starting today, we got him a new babysitter, the recent one had to care for her teribbly sick FIL) my big boy? lost in his endless dreams of his V500 (Vulcan 500) for this entry, lemme cherish u wt pix frm Cameron Highlands

kat Cameron ni bleh peluk2, sbb sejuk giler..! but the place d*#@ lovely! i just luz the air & the night market..
the ever-so-famous choco strawberry (its nothing, actually, & i wonder why that-you-knw-who celeb is so over the hills wt this b4 she got married..emmm)

Breakfast at Tiffany's

i'm pretty sure that upon readin' the title, one must have gotten the idea that the three of us went for an xtravaganza brkfast at some elegant restaurant..presentin'...umar and his fascination wt straws..haha

he wz a bit reluctant to go, but after seeing his son guling2 boring saturday morning tu, walid pon said.."ok..off we go to MCD!!!" yeah! so, he had this, brkfast set no 5..mmg sedap pon..

i had this..jaga bdn? not really, but the fact that 1/2 of mommy's portion has to go to the lil' monster, so i got to have something that will not depress his cute tummy

and of course, both of us r coffee maniac, so these r ours..
while this is his...
umar latest & newest buddy!! (which i x knw how long its gonna last!)

lurve, sacrifices

salam...
i'm back..after almost 3 weeks leavin' the bloggin' xtivity behind..anyway..i just finished reading a malay storybook, by faisal tehrani "tunggu teduh dulu"..x worry, i'm not gonna write the synopsis of this book, rather its more on "what i think of this book"..
anyway, a colleague of mine once asked me, is it tru that this novel is much better than ayat2 cinta?..emmm. its difficult u see..if i were to say that faisal's piece is better than the other, one might say that i x give a chance to foreign writers to show their talents, on the other hand, if i were to say that ayat2 cinta is better than faisal's, then i might be labelled as not posssessing a sense of belongingness..emmm..what say u?
lemme start wt ayat2 cinta, in which the 1st romantic novel that he bought 4 me (wink!)..upon finishing the story, my soul cried for more novels wt similar plot..my heart really felt for this novel, for it has shown the true meaning of being in love according to the Islamic rules it's more on showin u the path for tru happiness wt ur loved ones in marriages and that once u've taken the marriage vow, the vow will be wt u rite till the end of ur lives and insyaAllah, u'll be together wt ur loves ones in the HereAfter world.

"Cinta sejati adalah cintanya sepasang pengantin yang telah diridhai Tuhan dan didoakan seratus ribu malaikat penghuni langit. Tak ada perpaduan kasih lebih indah dari pernikahan" sabda baginda Nabi.

ayat ayat cinta

while faisal's piece is an example of a muslim woman wt stallion spirit, yet she accepts fate as it is she never goes against the fate, for she believes that whatever happens, He knows better she actually managed to put aside her desires for having someone (legally) by her side, but bcoz of the family problems, she kept that away in her heart & nobody knows her true feelings could we do such thing like what she did? i x think so! we prefer to do things according to our way, let alone asking for His guidance..

Ya Allah, berilah aku kekuatan dalam menempuhi hidup ini!

tp..dlm kesusahan Allah tetap akan menurunkan kemanisannya..and finally she married some1 that she has never thought of..

Tuhan akan menunjukkan kepada yang mencari. Ya, asal kau mahu mencari, Dia menunjukkan.

"Sesungguhnya perintah-Nya apabila Dia mengkehendaki sesuatu hanyalah berkata kepadanya: "Jadilah!", maka terjadilah ia

Surah Yaasiin, ayat 82

moments of terror

yesterday marked the foolishness in me..knw what... i subconsciously gave umar the car key, while he wz playin wt the steering, while i went out to unlock the gate..and suddenly i heard.."tiung,tiung..!" Ya Allah, anakku terkunci dlm kereta sorang2..

dahle another set of key left in my handbag, which happened to be at the back seat! masa tu, klu toreh daging pipiku yg montel ini, confirm x kuar red blood ( blue blood adalah!) 4 few seconds, i x think of anything, i could x even squeeze my own hands! that wz the first time & ever i confronted that kind of situation..

nasib baik air cond baru turned off, so it wz quite ok in the car + cuaca pon not that hot & humid ( ptg..almost maghrib dah masa tu..!)

i felt like sreaming, tp kena control sbb kot2 org nampak, sure pak polisi dtg..so, i slowly pointed to umar the alarm, and slowly taught him to push the blue button..Ya Allah..anakku ini mmg super-cheecky (cam mama awie ckp) kid, dia bleh senyum simpul sambil gelak2..sabar je...i did that for 3, 4 times & he wz almost pushed the button, but whenever his index finger wz abt the reach that button, he smiled at me ( sure dia fening kepala sbb mommy dia cam org hilang akal demonstrating to him on how & which button to push..!) i think i finally fully utilized the TPR ( Total Physical Response) theory on how to teach toodlers to follow ur orders.. huh, x sia2 blajo 5 + 3 yrs..

walid plak ODW frm segamat, baru antar his vulcan to the mechanics sbb ade part yg x satisfy his eyes..huhu..camne nak call ni, HP pon dlm tas tgn..as I wz abt to leave him alone, and ran back to the house to make an emergency call to walid, i suddenly heard "tiung, tiung"..as fast as the lightning strikes, i ran back to the car, open all four doors and grinned (nanny dah pesan, klu anak buat salah jgn marah trus, senyum dulu) and he quickly gave me back the car key..AlhamdulliLAH..

when he reached home, i told him this..so this is his advice (to all mommies out ter..)

1. if u need to leave ur kids n the car ( while u unlock the gate) make sure that u ROLL DOWN the driver's window

2. plz make sure that u switch the gear to P ( for auto) & pull up the handbrake

BUT ABOVE ALL, never, ever leave ur kids unattended in the car..

so mlm td, after magrhib prayer, walid suruh buat sujud syukur..syukur, syukur...sigh..uhhhhhh