Flyin' low..

all of the sudden, I feel like flyin' low , so low that I could feel the earth vibrates so low that I could hear insects and birds singin' on top of their lungs so low that I almost stumble upon the unwanted people and crisis and issues that I never want to encounter, especially after a series of wonderful makan2 in Penang

In other words, yes...I am DEMOTIVATED today so demotivated that I fail to smile for the boys at home since this morning, I've been searchin' for answers as to why am I so demotivated and I think I finally found the answer....I left my lil' monster for three days and now I must suffer the consequences !!!

hahaha

at times, people are allowed to cry, to feel like banging things to the wall, to scrream as much & as loud as they want (or can?) or better still, to scold & yell to those who cause this..but in case, I don't want to blame people, let alone things I take the blame solely on my shoulders as I knw that everyone of us should be able to carry the faults & wrongdoings and I am thankful that thru out this process, I still can think of Him and pray that this mundane feelings will soon be gone once I got back home coz I can't bear the fact to see the lil' monster to play & run alone (can't miss all the fun!!) as I look back now (my watch shows that I have another 15 mins left b4 5pm), I guess one of the thinniest demotivating factors is when I have people walking in my office, promoting something and later forcing me to join her downline (MLM) the truth is, I detest the idea of this kind of business since I have to be on the move in order to keep my points (PV) above the line & if I don't, the big people (the top people) will take the PV, leaving me with nothing and when that happens, I call that as "too much" and in fact, this is against the business ethics in Islam (pardon me for my ignorant, but this is what told my the other half of me just now)

So...I found my answer...

I just can't deal with people who do business and at the same time forcing me to join her downline..

GET OUT!!!!!

Penang...

the day has come finally...

after few niteless nites, buckets of sweat, day dreaming days..we finally arrived Penang at 5.15 pm just now nasib baik the hotel is situated b4 the Penang Bridge (i got this syndrome of body chill & forehead sweat whenever I have to go thru places wt water & that includes vacationing by the beaches!!) anyway, the hotel that we r staying is only 4 mins drive from the conference hotel @ Hotel Sunway...we took off from Jementah at around 10.30 am, after few attempts of leaving and kissing and hugging the lil' fellow.. huhu seriously I have no idea how are we going to survive this 48 hrs ++ without him by our side..i spent almost half of d nite staring at d lil'guy..and praying that I will not shed any tears there...so far, ok je..but this bed is sooo sooo big @ standard king size..and there is a space in between us..knw what, we put all our bags, the bulky camera plus this lappy just to fill in the empty space hehehe

the journey was ok, to my surprise i didn' sleep at all ! the other half of me snoozed few times..I guess the adrenaline to present our first paper kept me awake thru out the journey! we made few stops, with Tapah R&R was our lunch stop over..

so, just now after sholat, the 2 of us headed for the ever-famous nasi kandar...tp kat sini je lah..

In front of the Nasi Kandar restaurant, while waiting for the car ..and I found tis across the road...

wow...24 hr club..never tot I found tis in Penang mainland...hehe suddenly this evil tot crawled into my mind..hehe I mean, why not..u see, 2mrw is the day, the day that i'll get butterfly in tummy..so, why not 2nite I fully enjoy myself here? music all nite long..deiiii taggechi..! kasi balik tido lah!!! ahaha

our 1st encounter wt nasi kandar just now..burp! so skrng, bleh tido dgn lenanya!! tp....itu budak kecik di jementah...!!!

NAK BALIK!!!!

No Wonder... @RM65,000

hemmmm...

no wonder...I've been wondering this for sometime now, is it me who is getting poorer or people are getting richer ? I mean, yeah I could be poorer since there are bills to pay, nappy to get, cow products to get for the lil' one plus I don't entertain such ideas of doin' business just to get some millionaire side income..( what else could u possibly want..? good job, good life & good pay here..) I knw 1 person here, he has been on this business for quite sometime & now he is enjoying every bit of his tough effort by driving a posh car ..but, its his choice as 4 me, I am soooo comfortable wt his 2004 Gen 2 and my 1995 Big Foot @ Big Momma

tp, lately, I see lotta Hondas & Vioses at the campus, and all of them are young drivers plus I saw 1 Swift..cantik woooo

then, I think to myself, am I getting less every month..nope..but then, how on earth do they afford to buy such cars??

the answer is ....

NO..I AM not getting less every month..instead, the govt car loan has been increased from RM55,000 to RM65,000 now...

.......patutlah.......